Thursday, July 12, 2007
erhh.. today come and write have lot of thing to say.. erh.. first say about love ba.. erhh i always think tthat my love is not veri bad .. cos i not really mei ren yao.. but after this few month i realize that 我爱的人他已不在爱我了。。is realli very hurting that she have no feeling toward not even a singel feeling.. i know i have fault first cos i am the one that say break and now i want her back.. am i too studpig.. YA I AM.. i realli want a chance to be with her again.. i also know that this will nv happen.. but i always told myself.. i will be with her again de.. but after some chat with her i found out that i really dun have the chance no more.. i dunno am i too young to think that she is my miss ritez for the rest of my life.. cos she is like a angel to me no people know me more den she is .. and her good is not anyone can compare.. but i belive mircale.. 1 day i will be with her de ba.. i will wait and wait and wait..
2nd let me say about my mature.. i just now chat with my frenz and i realize i really not mature enough.. i dunno what happen to me .. i always 自已为是 tot that i know alot of thing my exprien is more den alot of people.. cos i come out and work at 15.. i also found out i always like to speak without thinkking..sometime i realli think of be a quite guy... nope is boi.. but i am not that kind.. but whenever i found that i know u long or ever just know nia.. i will say thing that hurt them or say thing that not in the topi.. should i be someone tha shut and listen dun tok till people ask or call..
3rd let me say about my attitude.. my attitude dunno is what sometime i am good and sometime i dun wan to listen to any singel u say.. tot that i know alot more that u den will show attitude.. i always try to 忍 but in the end i will onli hate the person more.. den the way i tok also bad attitude maybe a word sorri or pls i found that i can't always use.. or can say i dun use pls at all.. i onli eh , oei or whateven ..
last myself... i dunno what type of person i am what i want and what is love.. maybe i think that be with someone u love and the person love u .. or cherish , care all that is love.. but i really dunno am i loving that person.. i always change gf but in the end the 1 i most love is not the ger i be with.. and i also dunno why i now dun dare to say i love u to the ger.. or what.. but last time de wo is like have what say what.. i always like to compare of alot of thing.. den i always do thing half half.. maybe today i say i want like that den after a few week or maybe day hou i will forget what i have say and try to forget of all the thing i told myself.. i going to 20 le till now i still dunno after ns what should i do.. study working or what.. i tot that i have change to another person that know how to think.. but everything is just bluffing myself and other.. i dunno what i want still the same walk 1 step see 1 step dunno how to think far look far..
erhh actually everything i say i also dunnno what am i trying to say or telling other.. i just think of what type what.. i really hope that now got someone i trust to chat with ..teach me what is human bin what should i do when i working .. dun always so 自已为是。。
haiz tot of write in chinese but end up dunno how to spell i realli toot losser..
forget it..WHO I AM CAN I DUN WEAR MESK ANYMORE
